He’s really there.

Oh, it’s been a while since one of these drafts has been published. It’s been a while since I’ve written a couple sentences and felt that they flowed, were natural, and were all complete sentences. Thank you to those who sent me messages to check up on me and see how I was doing. Those words meant so much to me.

Frazzled.

chicken

Don’t ask why I thought this was hilarious!

That’s probably the most fitting adjective for me these days. I’ve heard the term “running around like a chicken with it’s head cut off” and I’ve realized that it’s alarmingly accurate.

Life is busy, and I often feel torn between wanting to give more to my son, but feeling empty myself. It’s hard to be taking 3 classes and still being a mom. It makes me think of all those working mom’s, all the single mom’s, and all the mom’s who may not be single, but feel they are going at it alone. I cannot imagine the sheer exhaustion. I have the utmost respect for you. You are incredible.

But, we keep going, right? We realize we’re stronger than we thought, and that our souls can weather storms we hadn’t conceived before. We do our best, at times feeling like a failure and we move forward loving our family the best we know how.ย  Luckily, there is a loving God.

I feel God is very intimately involved in this motherhood journey of ours, whether we have children or not yet. He sees our sorrows and our yearning hearts. He’s near our side in the middle of the nights. He’s stroking our hair when we cry out at night from exhaustion and loneliness. He’s right by our side when we struggle to conceive. He listens intently to our prayers we send up to Him and answers them in His time and way.

A picture I drew in High School that brought peace to my soul.

A picture I drew in High School that brought peace to my soul.

He’s really there. In my times of deepest sorrow, I often pray for the ability to feel His warm and loving embrace. In those moments I feel the deepest sense of comfort and love just surround me.

He’s really there.

Girls, we got this. We got this crazy, mixed-up, altered plans, hurt hearts, exhilarating life. We got this, because He is really there.

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If you are interested in finding more bloggers, I linked some of the blogging women who have inspired me to be stronger and rely on God. Really, they are my friends. If you want some inspiration and a dose of straight-talk, real life, then stop by their blogs to meet them.

In alphabetical order: A Babbling Brooke, Catching Crawfish, Chloe Kepner, Invited by Grace, Light the Lie, MomLife Now, Natalie Brenner, Noelle B. Blogs and Three Boys and a Mom

*ALSO, since life is much busier and it’s harder for me to sit down and blog as often, I would love if you would follow me on Instagram, Facebook, and Twitter to get more daily updates. ๐Ÿ™‚ Thank you for being apart of my life!

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Shameless (actually slightly embarrassed) plug

This last week I decided to take a leap and join the Top Mommy Blogs Community. I don’t know how I feel about the title. I’m in no way a “Top Mommy Blog” but I love that I am a mom and I do have a blog, so I guess I’m “approved.” ๐Ÿ™‚ย  I had seen some of my blogging friends (MomLife Now, Three Boys and a Mom, Stories of Our Boys, and Collecting Moments) were part of the community and realized I would love to join.

TMB-approved-200Top Mommy Blogs is a great resource for finding blogs that are personable, made up of mostly original posts, and share their own voice from their heart. There are little advertisements or giveaways. Meaning, if you want to find an original, personable blog in just about any category–go there!

Here comes the part I feel a little, okay a lot, silly about though. If you would, I would love it if you would vote for me on Top Mommy Blogger. All you have to do is click the cute badge on the sidebar, or the banner down at the bottom of my blog. That is it. It will take you to the Top Mommy homepage, but you don’t have to do anything else.

You can vote once per day. So anytime you stop by and if you feel like you enjoyed a post, I would love it if you would click the button and show me some Top Mommy Blogs love! ๐Ÿ™‚ By voting for me, my blog will be easier for other people to find.

Thank you so much for sharing your light with me, my friends. Your own blogs, posts you write, and most of all friendships, bring so much beauty, not to mention pure genius into my life.

You can even click right here to vote!

You can even click right here to vote!

Tour my blog! (Virtual Blog Tour Award)

First, I want to thank Torrie at A.Promptreply for nominating me for this Virtual Blog Tour Award. Even though Torrie and I are in different stages and walks of life, she has a gift for connecting and really reaching out to those she meets. Her insights are fabulous and her personality contagious. You should read my favorite post of her’s HERE.

So what is a Virtual Blog Tour award? Simply a way for others to learn more about how I get ideas, why I blog, and showcase new blogs. Sounds like a win-win to me!

Here are the rules:

  1. Pass the tour on to up to four other bloggers. Give them the rules and a specific Monday to post.
  2. Answer four questions about your creative process which lets other bloggers and visitors know what inspires you to do what you do.
  3. Compose a one-time post which is posted on Monday (date will be given to you from whoever passes on the tour)

Four Bloggers to Nominate: I want to learn more about your blogging experience! If you decide to participate, post your virtual blog tour on November 10th

  1. Emily at Light the Lie
  2. Jen at Staying Mom
  3. Abbie at Abbie’s Babble
  4. Tarynn at Mama by Fire

Four Questions:

1. What am I working on? When I first started my blog I was working on gaining a following, but now I’m just looking for relationships and people that inspire me. I’m working on finding peace within myself and with my blog.

841151_10152179215551763_847383995_o(1)2. How does my work differ from others of its genre? The only thing different about my workย is me. I love to find connections and parallels in life. I search for how small events can teach me bigger lessons. But there are many people who do this well and who teach me so much. So in the end, the main difference is who I am, the thoughts I have, and the way I communicate and share my love with those who I come in contact with.

3. Why do I write/create what I do? I write because I have all these thoughts swirling in my head. I can see these lessons and I want to document them. I firmly believe that God teaches those who value His words. He gives more lessons to those who treasure the lessons they have. So I am trying to recordย my lessons. I am trying to make sense of the madness and hopefully inspire not only myself, but a friend too.

mountains near my house with stunning clouds4. How does your writing/creating process work? It comes throughout the day. I’ll be doing some everyday thing with my boy, and then I’ll try to think about it on a different level. How would this apply to my marriage, my faith, my role as a mother? The connections seem to come to the surface; there are lessons everywhere in life!

Again, I appreciate Torrie for giving me this opportunity. It was fun to think about my creative process and think about my goals. I look forward to learning about the creative process of my fellow bloggers!

Blog Award: Sisterhood is a beautiful thing!

Today I am so excited to share one of my favorite bloggers with you! I was nominated for the Sisterhood of the World Bloggers award by Emily at Light the Lie, and could not have been more honored or flattered. Emily is a gem. She shines, radiates, and practically glitters from the light she has within her. On top of that, the way she can shed light on a subject, in order to see things as they really are, is fabulous. Her blog really is a win-win. I continually go back to her blog, not just for her contemplative writing, but simply for her.

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So, let’s talk about sisterhood. In the urban dictionary it defines sisterhood as: “A bond between two or more girls, not always related by blood. They always tell the truth, honor each other, and love each other like sisters.”

So for me, this award is for those bloggers that leave me feeling understood, close, respected, and cared for. I’ve realized as I have entered this world of blogging that to me the most important aspect is the sisterhoods. The times when I’m really getting to know someone, how they think, and seeing into their soul; the comments of encouragement, kindness, humor, and warmth. To me, this is the “rewarding” aspect of blogging.

The Rules: *I slightly changed the rules
1. Thank the blogger who nominated you, linking back to their site.
2. Put the award logo on your blog.
3. Answer the ten questions they have given you.
4. Nominate ten people. *[I honestly am new to blogging and am still creating sisterhoods. I didn’t want to feel the need to nominate a certain number of people, but simply share those I love.]
5. Make up ten new questions for them to answer.

Ten Questions from Emily @ Light the Lie:

My questions for you!

  1. What is it about your best friend that makes them so wonderful? My best friend is my husband. What makes him wonderful is his ability to see me for who I am, with all my faults, and yet love me and gently encourage me. I couldn’t as for a better teammate.
  2. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be? I would love to travel all over. But in terms of living day-in and day-out, honestly I am so content with where I am living. So it would have to be in the Utah Valley. ๐Ÿ™‚
  3. What helps you get through a long day? Dance parties, chocolate chips, and talking to my sisters. Random, but true!
  4. What is a topic on teens you would like to see written about? Finding a source of true confidence that withstands any bad day.
  5. When you think about High School you feel _____? Some good memories, but so happy to be done. ๐Ÿ™‚
  6. If you could get rid of one day of the week, which would it be and why? Probably Tuesday. It’s a long day for Sam and long days for Sam, mean long days for me. What can I say? I like my husband!
  7. What do you dream about for your future? Traveling around the world with Sam and my little kiddos. Watching my kids grow up to do wonderful things and have kids themselves.
  8. What are you most passionate about? I am really passionate about family and marriage. Before my schooling was put on hold for my sweet boy, Parker, I was studying Marriage and Family in college. If someone starts bringing up issues regarding parenting, marriage, and family, it is a bit hard for me to keep my mouth shut. ๐Ÿ™‚
  9. What is the best present you ever received? My mind actually went to a time about 8 years ago. My brother was leaving to go to college. Our relationship had always been touch and go. I was much younger, not very cool, and oh so annoying. To me, I thought he was amazing and wished we could be closer. But a 6 year gap was hard to span growing up. He had left home, but sent me home something. It was a stick that he had carefully carved my name into. When I got it, I was so touched and couldn’t hold back the tears. I was amazed that he had thought about me enough to spend hours carefully carving my name. It showed me he really did care, and that gift still means more to me than I can express.
  10. Who knows you better than anyone else? Definitely my husband. No contest on that one!

I am so excited to nominate and share with you some of the people who I feel a sisterhood with. A kind of warmth and caring that rises above the posts they publish:

Here are 10 Questions for You:

  1. What is it about your best friend that makes them so wonderful?
  2. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be?
  3. What helps you get through a long day?
  4. What is your favorite way to spend your weekends?
  5. When you think about High School you feel _____?
  6. If you could get rid of one day of the week, which would it be and why?
  7. What do you dream about for your future?
  8. What are you most passionate about?
  9. What is the best present you ever received?
  10. What is your favorite book and why?

I understand some may not want participate, so please feel in no way that you are obligated to participate! Mostly take this nomination as a “Thank You. I think you are awesome.” from me! Thank you for being such sweet, down-to-earth people; for sharing your real selves with the world; for your sisterhood. Your involvement in my life has made blogging exceptionally more meaningful. ๐Ÿ™‚

You can be a champion

As a new blogger, I’ve been thinking a lot about… blogging. I’ve also been thinking about all my blog currently is and all I hope it to be. Currently they aren’t matching up and it can be discouraging.

To be quite honest, I have big dreams. Some that I am almost too afraid to admit. I feel sheepish even writing it down, but I do it in hopes that someone will not feel alone in their dreams.

I have dreams of being an influential person in the world. Dreams of having content on my blog that encourages and uplifts. Dreams of initiating helpful conversations on the internet. Dreams of friendships that support one another from states away.

It is hard when those dreams feel so out of reach and far away. It is difficult when I feel completely insignificant. There is this nagging voice in the back of my head, that says I have nothing to offer a world with 152 million blogs. But I keep pushing the voice away, because I read your blogs and they uplift me. Each individual voice adds something unique and teaches me something; something only you could teach me. And I’m grateful for that.

As I was listening to music today while cleaning the house, the song “Hall of Fame” by The Script came on. I love that song. I was listening to the lyrics when I realized how powerful the words were. The theme of the song is this–YOU can be a champion. You can conquer the challenges ahead. You have to give your dreams a fighting chance, because you’ll never know if you don’t give it a good try.

“Giving up is the only sure way to fail.”-Gena Showalter

You can be a champion

My boy, Parker, who inspires me to keep trying.

So whatever it is that you dream about, keep at it. You’ll never know if you might be great, unless you give it a good chance. A creative mom, a talented cook, an inspirational blogger, a supportive sister, the greatest exercise guru–whatever it is! We are much more powerful and equal to the task than we realize.

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?… As we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same.” —Marianne Williamson

What are your dreams? How do you stay motivated to do what you love?