Easter: Made stronger than I am

This week spring is in my heart. The warmer temperatures, the blossoms blooming, the clear blue skies and bright sunshine all bring this new sense of life to my soul. It reminds me of Christ, the one who enlivens my soul and brought life to the whole world.

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In my quiet time this morning {which is a rare beauty} I read this verse while reading THIS talk:

“Yea, the Lord did strengthen them that they could bear up their burdens with ease, and they did submit cheerfully and with patience to all the will of the Lord.” (Mosiah 24:15)

I want this verse to be the core of my life. I will always have burdens, even though my heart seems to yearn for the time when my life will be free of them. But even though there will always be something that is hard, worrisome, or wears me down, I can always turn to God, be strengthened by Him, and then move on and live my life {full of burdens} cheerfully.

That is my desire. To be stronger because of my life. Not simply keep asking for an easier life.

I know I have been absent for quite a while, but I have a new goal to be back more often, but with more simple posts. I’ve realized I live for these meaningful thoughts. I long for a space to dump my brain. I want to write my thoughts with no reservations. They will show what I care for and be raw and real. They will embrace my beliefs and all I live and love.

I hope this Easter week is meaningful for you as it is for me. I’m feeling enlivened by the bright knowledge that God lived and died to give me life and strengthen me.

He’s really there.

Oh, it’s been a while since one of these drafts has been published. It’s been a while since I’ve written a couple sentences and felt that they flowed, were natural, and were all complete sentences. Thank you to those who sent me messages to check up on me and see how I was doing. Those words meant so much to me.

Frazzled.

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Don’t ask why I thought this was hilarious!

That’s probably the most fitting adjective for me these days. I’ve heard the term “running around like a chicken with it’s head cut off” and I’ve realized that it’s alarmingly accurate.

Life is busy, and I often feel torn between wanting to give more to my son, but feeling empty myself. It’s hard to be taking 3 classes and still being a mom. It makes me think of all those working mom’s, all the single mom’s, and all the mom’s who may not be single, but feel they are going at it alone. I cannot imagine the sheer exhaustion. I have the utmost respect for you. You are incredible.

But, we keep going, right? We realize we’re stronger than we thought, and that our souls can weather storms we hadn’t conceived before. We do our best, at times feeling like a failure and we move forward loving our family the best we know how.  Luckily, there is a loving God.

I feel God is very intimately involved in this motherhood journey of ours, whether we have children or not yet. He sees our sorrows and our yearning hearts. He’s near our side in the middle of the nights. He’s stroking our hair when we cry out at night from exhaustion and loneliness. He’s right by our side when we struggle to conceive. He listens intently to our prayers we send up to Him and answers them in His time and way.

A picture I drew in High School that brought peace to my soul.

A picture I drew in High School that brought peace to my soul.

He’s really there. In my times of deepest sorrow, I often pray for the ability to feel His warm and loving embrace. In those moments I feel the deepest sense of comfort and love just surround me.

He’s really there.

Girls, we got this. We got this crazy, mixed-up, altered plans, hurt hearts, exhilarating life. We got this, because He is really there.

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If you are interested in finding more bloggers, I linked some of the blogging women who have inspired me to be stronger and rely on God. Really, they are my friends. If you want some inspiration and a dose of straight-talk, real life, then stop by their blogs to meet them.

In alphabetical order: A Babbling Brooke, Catching Crawfish, Chloe Kepner, Invited by Grace, Light the Lie, MomLife Now, Natalie Brenner, Noelle B. Blogs and Three Boys and a Mom

*ALSO, since life is much busier and it’s harder for me to sit down and blog as often, I would love if you would follow me on Instagram, Facebook, and Twitter to get more daily updates. 🙂 Thank you for being apart of my life!

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From uglies to beauties

Lately sitting down to write has not come easy. Partly because I’ve felt my thoughts have been anything but inspirational, hopeful, or weaved together well.

So here are my broken words–

Life has left me broken; feeling acutely aware of all my faults, all I lack, and how I’ve fallen short of who I want to be. For a whole slew of reasons I’ve come face to face with a version of myself I always tried to ignore or simply believed was not really part of me, but part of a situation.

“No, that’s not me, that’s part of my postpartum depression.”

“No, that’s not me, it’s part of the stress of moving twice in just over a month.”

“No, that’s not me, that’s part of being sleep deprived and up all night with Parker.

No, no, no, no, no….

But, I’m done with the excuses. I’m tired of letting my temper and my unruly side get the better of me. I’m tired of dumping it on my husband and son. I’ve decided to step up to the mirror and own up to even the ugliest parts of me; the parts I try to turn away from or hide in my closet. It’s time for me to get them out, sort through the uglies, and decide how to conquer them; how to make them beauties.

Speaking of the uglies in my closet... here in my closet currently. :)

Speaking of the uglies in my closet… here in my closet currently. 🙂

I keep reminding myself of this promise:

“… for if they humble themselves before me, and have faith in me, then will I make weak things become strong unto them.” (Ether 12:27)

I really do believe that. Or at least I’m trying to believe that. I want it badly. I want to be able to contain my temper, even during stressful times. I want to be kind to my husband, even when I’m low on sleep. I want to have more patience with my son, even if I’m sick and depleted.

Because when in life will I be able to say I’m not stressed about something? Probably sometimes. But, not very often.

In the end, I want my happiness and kindness to be in my court, not dependent on perfect situations. Because life, as beautiful and wonderful as it is, is rarely a perpetual, perfect situation.

How have you overcome personal traits that you didn’t want in your life? I would love your advice as I am on my own journey of overcoming!

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Tender mercies at the dumpster

These last couple months I have found myself in situations I never dreamed of, not bad, but unexpected. One evening in particular, I found myself hanging halfway inside a dumpster.

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I was all alone trying to scrummage up some boxes for our move. A certain company threw away boxes each day and I heard they didn’t mind if you took them. So there I was, halfway over the dumpster trying desperately to reach boxes. Yet, they were too low to reach and my midsection was starting to hurt from balancing on the metal. The only reason I hadn’t jumped in the dumpster, was because I was worried I wouldn’t be able to get out.

I was about to give up and was easing myself down from the dumpster when I heard an employee with more boxes come up behind me. I got embarrassed. If my cheeks could flush, I imagine they would have been furiously flushing at this point. I hadn’t been this buddy-buddy with a dumpster for a long time, or ever! Why did someone have to witness me right now? I thought what I was doing was fine, but I was nervous. I felt low, dirty, and a bit ashamed.

The employee walked up with the boxes and I built up a titch of courage. I asked him if he was going to put his boxes in the dumpster. He replied that he was and asked if I wanted them. I expressed that I most certainly did. Then he not only said I could have the boxes, but he picked them up and asked if he could put them in my car.

After spending time hanging over a dumpster, his words and actions were practically magical.

I drove away from that dumpster feeling blessed, really blessed. During this time in my life when things were uncertain and frustrating, this experience has lasted in my mind–a moment when I felt keenly God was aware of little, dirty, almost dumpster diving, me. 

“A loving Savior was sending me a most personal and timely message of comfort and reassurance”- David Bednar

Sometimes it is during our lowest, lows when we feel like we’re hanging over the dumpster of life that God gives us a tender mercy. A mercy meant just for us. A mercy so timely and so full of love, there is no doubt it is from God.

“The Lord is good to all: and his tender mercies are over all his works.”- Psalms 145:9

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Ladies, we’re equipped

Lately one single article has settled on my mind. I knew I found something good when I realized the post has stayed open in my internet tabs for over two weeks. The post was written by, NieNie Dialogues, and titled, Mothers are not wimps. The title alone drew me in and reminded me that as a woman, I have what it takes to go through life.

Sometimes the world lets us believe that our responsibilities in life are way above us; that we’re continually almost drowning in a sea of lack of sleep, hardships, tantrums and trials that are insurmountable. While I believe there are times and situations that test our limits, I also believe we are far more capable than we give ourselves credit for.

We were prepared for this life. We were given special gifts and the capacity to tackle life’s troubles. Innately, we have what it takes to overcome whatever is thrown at us. And when a trial comes that seems to wipe us out–we are still equipped, as we turn to our God who is on our side and who is infinitely stronger than the waves of trials crashing down.

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Yes, innately and with God’s help, we’re equipped for the midnight feedings, devastating depression, and loneliness. We’re equipped for sleepless nights, broken dreams, and empty hearts. We’re equipped for the illness, for comparisons, and for unkind remarks. We’re equipped.

I firmly believe God did not hang us out to dry when he sent us to earth.

Just as I hope to carefully prepare my children for their first day of school; just as we triple check we have packed enough snacks, milk, and diapers for the babysitter; just as we shower our kids with hugs and kisses before they step out the door–so has our God, our Heavenly Father, prepared us for our time on earth.

“There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.” (1 Corinthians 10:13)

We can be filled with confidence in ourselves and our ability to go through life with happiness, because we are equipped.

*Please check out Mothers are not wimps, as she has heavily inspired this post.

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